ARGGG!!!!!

I am really completely insane right now. I have no idea about anything that I need to do. Am I suppose to just sit back and hope something clears thing up? Or should I run forward into the dark stumbling, falling, until I destroy everything that I once held dear? God this is so fucking confusing. One minute I'm a hundred percent sure about everything then the next I'm a hundred percent sure that I know NOT ONE DAMN THING. Is this really what life is suppose to be like? Living blindly not knowing the next step? Am I fool because I want something else? Something that makes life not so hard, and I know she'll care when the morning comes. Maybe I am but I'd rather be a relatively romantic fool then a cold calculating wise man any day. Anyways for anyone out there who is reading this (which last time I checked was 0) I really need some advice...should I take what the world is offering or should I take what I want and fuck the repercussions of my actions? I think the latter decision is my best bet becaus ehonestly...who the fuck needs rules???