No Great Loss

So prom officially blew....my date kinda hated me, or so it seemed, I really wanted to make it a great time for her but it seems like I fucked up...again...I guess the saying you can't change a leopard's spots is true for me as well...I can never not be a fuck up. The funny thing is...I thought I would mess it up, but I never thought it would be because she didn't like me or something, I just thought that I would eventually say something, who knows, maybe I did, but I on't have any idea as to what. Well all I know is, if I got hit by a bus right now I would think....No Great Loss.

So she says this....

Let's just be friends....
So I say OK even thought it fucking kills me to say it. I am really trying to be just friends but their is a couple problems with this...first I am irrevocably in love with her. No matter what happens she will always own a part of my heart. Second and this is the biggest, she makes me feel bad when I am with another girl, and Third....She gets jealous and possessive when she finds out I kissed another girl or something of that nature.

Makes perfect sense doesn't it?

So.....

It has been awhile...and I guess I should start by saying....FUCK YOU!!!!
That is too all the people who let their boyfriends cheat on them....because their are guys like me who would kill for a chance with a girl as amazing as you....sorry about that people I am just a little tired of not being good enough for anyone lol

So here's a poem about my state of mind....


Worlds collide as you are on my mind and the world that I know ends,
But my mind is preoccupied with images of you and love is what I intend to find.
Yet here I am, another night alone, and I know you are out with him,
He is you lover, the man of your dreams, or so you keep on saying,
But he cheats, lies, and destroys your morale and your life he keeps on delaying.
But if you were with me you'd understand what a man has to offer,
Love understanding, with the aggressiveness you also require,
But instead of it aimed to hurting you, it'd be put to much better use,
Liking furthering this love, through any type of abuse.
Well that's the end of this fucking charade, now you know my wishes...
But you will stay with him, and think of me through all of his kisses.
Just think of how, while you sink farther in self-denial...
You could be with me instead of being with that child.